what if.

What if you were the one.

What if it was the day.

What if it was the right time.

What if you could.

What if you tried.

What if you did.

What if you are.

What if.....

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The stories we tell ourselves are woven into the mesh of every relationship. When the sun provides warmth to side of our face, we might wonder if it made a mistake; if it was meant to shine on another. When darkness blankets all understanding of our circumstance, we may feel at home in this shameful discomfort, strengthening a common thread in the fabric of our nervous system.

Within the realm of developmental trauma and Attention Deficit Disorder, children can pendulate from extreme frenetic tendencies to extreme fatigue and lethargy as a way of dissociating from the undesired emotions of feeling rejection or abandonment; similar experiences that were felt and ingrained during the attunement process of the developmental stages. As we learn and biologically bake the wirings of intended secure connection and regulation as an infant, any needs of being heard, held and seen that are not met stunt our ability to mature these trusting feelings into adulthood. Dr. Maté says that, 

“The integration of cognition with emotion-the melding of what we know with what we feel-is the very integration of the healing process one with ADD requires.”

So, let us lean into our innate yearning for spiritual practice; for something wider than the boundaries of our wired, palpable beliefs and walk the path home to the truest essence of our light-compassion. Let us feel into ourselves and know that the feedback is correct, warranted and, supported. And with this, calm the storms of oceanic crashing thoughts on the shores of each experience and sit in increasing stillness. Breath by breath, faithfully held in pure loving presence.

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Om.